Dec 25, 2008
Confuse!!should i change my school??
I'm not ready for going to school...
But school are going to open really soon....
as u know...i'm retain for sec one....
Erh!....wat a waste time...i had waste my parents money....
yeah!!!wasted their money...as u know my school fees was quite expensive...
hmm... i told my mom tht i wanna change my school...
cos i had wasted alot of their money but...but she said that's ok try hard for nxt yr again....HELLO! IT"S NOT OKAY!!!i don't wanna hurt them again...
hmm....if u wanna know...i'm like this...it's nt because we are too poor or wat...
i don't like to make them trouble...
yes i know it's their responsibility....
but i don't want to take an advantage to it...
hmm...should i change??
i think dat it's better to change cos i'm not good in arabic...
at least if i change my school... i can concentrate more in my academic subject...
It's really hurt wen u retain ok??
ppl don't feel it cos they never been through ...
They always talk about ppl...
it's really pain wen ppl call u stupid ok??
Even though they don't call me stupid but their reaction make me feel tht...
n ya ppl always say tht 'tk blaja...."especially my mom!erh!
she don't know anything ok??
yes i know tht my comp is inside my room...
but it doesn't mean tht i play my comp 24 hours...
if u dun trust me why don't u put cctv inside my room???
ERH!!!!HELLO! I"M STUDY OK!!!
so if i'm in the room it's mean i'm playing computer issit??
then u aspect me to study n memorising at living room??
i can't concentrate it ok??
i only can memorise wen i'm alone!!!
Cos i'm really weak in memorising...
FYI i hate memorising...but i must! n i tried okay??
but i don't know why wen the examination paper on my table...
.all suddenly my mind like totally blank!OMG!should i change??
but....everybody ask me to stay...
haiz....yes... i wanna stay....
but i'm not ready to meet new frens tht 2 yrs much younger than me....
OMG!argh!!!No! i must change my school.....
yeah....But....no one want to accompany me to Buona Vista ....
my mom sick...
my sister?? work....my brother??(tk bleh harap)
cousin?? ERH!(Enta eh...)
But if i change my school...There's something i must now...
their subject are different then mine...
it may be tough cos i never study dat subject before...
but... insyaAllah i try my hard to understand tht subject...
n try my hard to pass...
but i scared...
if i make a wrong move... i'm scared if i'm not able to cope it...
i don't want to regret....
OMG!!!Ouh GOD please help me....
Haiz....I think tht's it for now....:(
Bye diary...
Signing off~
what we could have been, 25.12.08.
